Re: i gotta cry + vent ... (long)

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Posted by xta on May 17, 2000 at 12:02:40:

In Reply to: i gotta cry + vent ... (long) posted by iZ's mom on May 17, 2000 at 00:55:05:

oh my prayers are with you and Q's parent is so right. You have been the best you can be and done far more than most owners would have. I beat myself up alot when Salvador passed away (thought of all the little signs I should have picked up on earlier). And the early care that could have been better had all my manuals been correct back then.

I agree with your DNR (although I couldn't have said it back when Salvador died I think I've grown up alot since then). As much as I wish I could have got him to the vet a day sooner (SUNDAY), in hindsight I don't think it would have made a difference-- and then he wouldn't have died in my arms, but with people that didn't love him like I did! I now can say I am thankful that his suffering was short (I only hope he wasn't hating life long before he took very ill). And I was so thankful that I had the strange urge to take him to the park the Sat. before his death-- so we had one last happy time together (we always went on Sunday). That Sat. night he took very ill and it was not a pleasant ride to the vet Monday. I tried to comfort him as he spasmed and hacked-- the only time I ever heard him make noise and not a pretty one--as I cried my eyes out. But as painful as it was, I was so happy to be there telling him I loved him and stroking him until he finally had a heart attack in my arms.

I hope you can be there with him too because it would have hurt me so much to find him lifeless--I couldn't have bared not saying goodbye. I think Salvador waited for me.

For the longest time I thought I would have given anything to have another week with him, but now I see that watching a suffering animal is just worse.

I hope you are being paranoid and Iz is okay for now, but when the time comes, I think you already have the right mindset. And we will all be here with open shoulders for you to cry your eyes out.

I really feel for you because I didn't have to go through a prolonged trauma like this (if I would have caught it sooner, I guess I would be in the same boat right at this moment).

good thoughts and prayers for you and Iz

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: oh my prayers are with you and Q's parent is so right. You have been the best you can be and done far more than most owners would have. I beat myself up alot when Salvador passed away (thought of all the little signs I should have picked up on earlier). And the early care that could have been better had all my manuals been correct back then. : I agree with your DNR (although I couldn't have said it back when Salvador died I think I've grown up alot since then). As much as I wish I could have got him to the vet a day sooner (SUNDAY), in hindsight I don't think it would have made a difference-- and then he wouldn't have died in my arms, but with people that didn't love him like I did! I now can say I am thankful that his suffering was short (I only hope he wasn't hating life long before he took very ill). And I was so thankful that I had the strange urge to take him to the park the Sat. before his death-- so we had one last happy time together (we always went on Sunday). That Sat. night he took very ill and it was not a pleasant ride to the vet Monday. I tried to comfort him as he spasmed and hacked-- the only time I ever heard him make noise and not a pretty one--as I cried my eyes out. But as painful as it was, I was so happy to be there telling him I loved him and stroking him until he finally had a heart attack in my arms. : I hope you can be there with him too because it would have hurt me so much to find him lifeless--I couldn't have bared not saying goodbye. I think Salvador waited for me. : For the longest time I thought I would have given anything to have another week with him, but now I see that watching a suffering animal is just worse. : I hope you are being paranoid and Iz is okay for now, but when the time comes, I think you already have the right mindset. And we will all be here with open shoulders for you to cry your eyes out. : I really feel for you because I didn't have to go through a prolonged trauma like this (if I would have caught it sooner, I guess I would be in the same boat right at this moment). : good thoughts and prayers for you and Iz

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